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Christmas lights almost up.  So grateful for my assistant.  Want more.  Need to get in the game.  Nauseous. Hopeful.  A bit stressed.  In like. Great conversations with a wonderful actress that I respect so much.  Released more of my story.  So much to do.  Very much wanting to be here but less afraid of dying.  Acceptance.  I love you but your story is not my story and your pain is not my pain.  I am joyful.  I love life.  I am scared sometimes.