Juicing and Water 47 of 365

Juicing lasted until about 6pm when I arrived at a baby shower.  I left my carrot/apple/beet juice chilling in the car.  And then it happened.  "Hey nice to meet you my boyfriends mom is from Haiti and she made this dish......" I didn't hear anything more.  I actually started salivating.  I didn't overdo it but that yummy spicy stuff was not juice, neither were the wings.  As I started the negotiations in my head I decided when I got home that maybe I would juice til dinner and try to be sensible and see how that goes.  Onward and upward.

On a weter note....I go into the bathroom ready for the bubbles and warm cozyness I had prepared and BAM......WATER EVERYWHERE....HELP!!!!  Roto Rooter to the rescue.  yikes.  As my grandma used to say, "life is a set of challenges......its how you deal with them that determines......" something or another but yeah that.

Thinking about juicing again 46

This book is only .80cents!  I think I will add it to a few that I have already.  But I feel a change in need indeed.  I enjoyed the 7day fast I did last year but I must say I was in Thailand alone and had nothing else to do but concentrate on me.  It was just me and only me to think about for 7 glorious day.  All my troubles were just somewhere else and it was divine.  Wake up at 7am get to the bungalo for yoga @ 7:30. Colonic at 10 massage at noon, beach at 2, colonic at 5, steam room at 6, EMT at 8 and by golly by 9 it is time for bed so I can do it all again.  A day full of taking care of myself was something else.  I feel one a comin on.  At least 3.

DAILY DOSE get it 45 of 365

Inspiration for the day.....face your fears.....dealt with the IRS
reward your self with more inspiration....saw SECRETARIAT.......wow so inspiring....check it out

ACCEPT AND BUILD 44

I had some humble pie and then I turned it around!  Voice lessons are terrible for the ego.  But then again the ego is good for some things and very limiting for others.  For example, it is important to strengthen the weakness in a foundation.  I had surgery in 08 on my chords.  The entire way that I have sung my whole life needs to be deconstructed, a new foundation laid and built again authentically me.  Now when this is happening I feel like I have no idea what I am doing.  I feel naked, I feel afraid and unsure; a vulnerable place for a performer.  My ego says, "We don't need no lessons!  We get paid to sing, you have been the best, you are the best!  We are fine just the way we are!  Look how far we've come Africa, Europe, Asia, North America  if it ain't bro...."
I have to interrupt
"Ego...it is a bit injured, not broke....I want to climb that mountain ego.  I know you are scared but we will be okay.  We have to feel ugly and lost for a bit but I promise...you will shine again..."

And so it goes.  I am in negotiation with different aspects of myself and forging forward.  Past the pain of my voice teacher who condemned me for singing anything but classical music - I have loathed voice teachers ever since and thus thwarted my limitlessness- past the fear of needing to impress and undressing my voice to hear the truth.  What is my true voice when I stop trying to wow and impress with my big notes and heavy sultriness?  Who am I as a singer and am I brave enough to bring forth this new sound?  What will it sound like?  People like what I give now so why change?  Will people like it as much?  What if they hate it?  Again I have to pacify this voice and trust that the truth of my voice will remain intact and accept and build........yeah a creative growth moment. ....yeah

Sick and Tired of being sick and tired......43 of 365

"Excuses are tools of the incompetent, and those who specialize in them seldom go far."
I remember when pledging we had to learn this quote.  I remember it well because no matter the task and excuse would never do....only the bottom line mattered.  Did you get it done?  Yes or no. 


This is something that life and a couple of ego busters has moved into my reflection.  If I don't like what is happening, how about I stop making excuses about it and get a move on?   "What do you really want?"  Someone asked me last week, he then went on to say, "...you are either creating or reacting....wanting something is on the reaction side.....what are you doing?"  


With this in mind I searched the world wide web and found a host of additional quotes on excuses.  They are like pests.....lets begin the extermination!!!!!


An excuse is worse than a lie, for an excuse is a lie, guarded. Alexander Pope


Every vice has its excuse ready. Publilius Syrus

Nothing is impossible; there are ways that lead to everything, and if we had sufficient will we should always have sufficient means. It is often merely for an excuse that we say things are impossible. Francois De La Rochefoucauld

The best job goes to the person who can get it done without passing the buck or coming back with excuses. Napoleon Hill

Two wrongs don't make a right, but they make a good excuse. Thomas Szasz

We are all manufacturers. Making good, making trouble, or making excuses. H. V. Adolt

We have forty million reasons for failure, but not a single excuse. Rudyard Kipling

There aren't nearly enough crutches in the world for all the lame excuses. Marcus Stroup

Excuses are the nails used to build a house of failure. Don Wilder

People with integrity do what they say they are going to do. Others have excuses. Laura Schlessinger

For many people, an excuse is better than an achievement because an achievement, no matter how great, leaves you having to prove yourself again in the future; but an excuse can last for life. Eric Hoffer

I attribute my success to this: I never gave or took an excuse. Florence Nightingale

And before I burden you with more excuses  I will end my last one in love....

“Love will find a way. Indifference will find an excuse.”

42

Okay really I have lots to say but have a big day tomorrow and between African Dance, a surprise Ny trip I gotta cut it short.  Who likes Chinese!???

41 of 365

And on the 7th day.  I needed this day of rest and re-group-eration.  Monday I am off and running.  The tales will be a comin, I can feel it. Anybody like Chinese?.....