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Okay really I have lots to say but have a big day tomorrow and between African Dance, a surprise Ny trip I gotta cut it short.  Who likes Chinese!???

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And on the 7th day.  I needed this day of rest and re-group-eration.  Monday I am off and running.  The tales will be a comin, I can feel it. Anybody like Chinese?.....

Who you callin a BITCH? 40 OF 365

Inspiration comes in many different forms.  Mine today came from Project Runway.  Gretchen the winner was never my favorite.  I have to say I did enjoy her collection the best which came as a surprise. And during the cast reunion I found respect for her, surprisingly so.  Cast mates called her a bitch. Said she was mean.  She tearfully said that because she is a woman, has an opinion and states it she is harshly judged.  This really stopped me in my footsteps.  I watched the entire season and agreed with many that she was a bit bitchy.  But bitchy in the way that I secretly think I am.  I am outwardly much nicer than she but inwardly have very strong opinions that I have learned to keep inside or only share with certain people.  The old adage about when you dislike something or someone usually it is really some aspect of yourself that you dislike or refuse to take responsibility for holds true for me in my reflection of Gretchen.  I think I was holding this idea, from society and the way I was raised, that to be open about your opinions = meanness especially when your opinion is not a popular or "likable" one.  People said she was mean to other designers and as she defended herself she clarified that she simply had an opinion about them as designers which was different than her feeling of them as a person.  I immediately connected with her and also connected with the idea that me being "nice" might get me just that....the title of "nice".  I am not interested in being mean and don't have mean feelings towards others but think it is high time I stop worrying about such things, whose feelings I hurt, who I alienate and trust that I am a good person and go on with the business of living my life from a place of personal integrity.  I spend way too much time trying not to alienate and making sure everyone feels good, has a good time and is happy.  DONE WITH THAT.

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I THINK in the book power of full engagement the author talks about the importance of rest.  I am hanging in there but I can feel myself unraveling.  I am in desperate need of a massage, and I just need peaceful sounds, things and people around me.  Laughter, a good story, nothin to deep because I am starting the engine and about to make some big moves in my life.   My center will come together and that which doesnt will fall by the wayside.  But first...........REST

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What I did today....
workshop that changed my life....FOREVER
vocal improv workshop with a friend that is a genius
then a dance class @ Alvin Ailey that has me taking Tylenol
and good conversation....

PRICELESS

FELA! 37 of 365

I got one word and one word only.

FELA!









Get into it.  See it.  It closes in January.  See that amazing tribute to a life that I only hope and dream to come close to.  Nahhhh I don't only hope or dream to, I aim to.  I aim to live in integrity to my spirit.  That is my intention, that is my prayer that is my hope.  A fulfilled life in love, in career, in spirit and in truth.

SEE FELA

....but....... don't even get me started on Patty.  Broadway stop it please.  Now I love me some Patty and I mean no disrespect, she is an icon, she is an idol she is an artist and has paved the way for many artists I respect her and her amazing chords.  I could only hope to accomplish all that she has....BUT......I was taken out of the amazing land of Fela by Broadway's ploy to sell tickets by exploiting stars and showing them in an odd, ill fitting light.  It just doesn't make sense to me.

October comes to an end 36 of 365

This was an incredibly busy month for me.  Starting from day one to LA for a week to participate in the USM graduate weekend deepening levels of the study and practice of human evolution and consciousness. And good times with friends that I miss and love in LA.  I didn't even touch the surface but a good and wonderful and loving time was had.  Soon as I got back I had auditions in NY my mothers high school reunion in Silver Spring, MD and then two weddings in the same week.  Right after that I performed at Stockton State College and then went to Atlanta to take care of business and celebrate one of my BFF's birth day.  And a few more things to do before the month comes to a complete and full end.  And November doesn't slow down a bit.  I love it and I am trusting it more and more.  Life.  My dog is obsessed with.....I wont say.