My insights for the day 152 of 365

Sisterhood
Women working together in service to humankind is actually fun.
Adele
She is amazing.  She gives access to her pain and beauty and it is inspiring and sounds good.
Blood
Is cool, especially....well blood is cool
Moms
Mothers are a blessing.  I love my mother and I am so grateful for this time we have together.  We have a relationship I have never dreamed possible.
Death
Reminds me of birth.  The end of something and the start of something else.  It still is a mystery
My bed
is my friend.
Love
I love love
Life
A choice, even when we think it is not

151

ho hum badadadadada

150

So I just have to say that my life is amazing.   I am beginning to meet members of my spiritual tribe and I am so grateful that I recognize them.  I am so grateful.  My prayers are being answered.  And it is not so much about me getting the dream job, the oscar, tony or grammy ( I intend to have these earthly accolades) but more about the quality that I would like to have accompany life line goals.  I am so grateful.  I am so very grateful.  

148

day two of no sugar.......ummmm i at least want some brown rice.  but my sleep is better, well at least im sleepy with no outside assistance.  no sugar=skinny me

149

sleepy

147

So much from the day to take in.  What do you wish for when all your dreams start to come true?

146 of 365

I am STILL working on putting up my first cooking video.  Sheesh.  

145 of 365

We have to take an effort to make a change world.  If you don't recycle START.  If you go to church and believe in God and DON'T recycle you are not taking care of the temple that God gave us to live in.  All of the turmoil on the planet is a result of our irreverence for mother earth.  Honor your MOTHER and your FATHER......we can't live if we have no planet.  Make a small change TODAY.  WE must....

144 of 365

So glad to hear Masaru and his family are safe and sound.  So glad to hear that folks are making it home from Japan.  I was getting concerned with the exposure to nuclear waste and whatnot.  You never know why things happen.  There were so many factors at play in my leaving Japan and I felt so defeated to not only leave Japan before I was ready but to also relocate back to the east coast.  I just didn't want to.  I felt defeated and yet I am so happy.  So much healing has taken place and things are starting to feel like they make sense.  Such a delicate discernment is necessary to no the difference between will and destiny.  You work in earnest and with a full heart but at some point you have to let it all go.   

143 of 365

I say it all the time that I am so blessed.  I am so grateful for my life, both the woes and the victories and for both my enemies and my friends.  Do I have enemies you say?  Well I'll put it this way, there are those who have been on my path who have hated themselves and projected this hate onto me and from time to time this has caused some issues.  I bless them all and am grateful to every experience that I have ever had in my life (gee I hope I don't regret saying this tomorrow).  I welcome joyful lessons and even more joyful experiences.  I learn best from love. Just a thought.

142

I have so much to do.  Not sure how I am going to do it all.

This weekend was such a blessing.  I am taking the BUILD YOUR BOOK workshop from renowned author and owner of MaxTheatrix, VP Boyle.   I am honored at the compliment and insight he gave me.  I am growing as an artist and I love it.  My friend Chris, who audited the class, cheered and very seriously encouraged me to take in the compliments and integrate them into my life.  I received such jewels in that class.  I also joined another acting network in the city.  I am excited for the work that my efforts will bring forth.  The one think VP said to me was that I was a star.  That being said he said that having the "it" factor doesn't necessarily guarantee me anything.  A sobering truth that tells me that it is not just talent and presence that yield a successful career.  It sure helps when you get a career but how do I get the career I seek?  That is the question.  He also encouraged me not to compromise me to get a job.  To harness, hone in on what I do and be that.  Be myself.  My message throughout my entire life.  Be you.  Trust.  Trust.  Trust.  Hope for good luck.  Hope that your hearts desires will be met.  All the while the world is cracking open from its core.  

141

My prayers go out to all those affected by the Tsunami.  

140

I am watching Parks and Recreation and she (can't think of her name) looks like a real life South Park character.  And she is so funny.  

139 FULL CIRCLE

I HAD SUCH AN (oops not ment for all caps) amazing time with family and friends.  So funny that I am so close with the people I grew up with.  Haven't been around them my entire life and when I moved back home they were there and growing and special and helped me to value not only my journey but my life.  So grateful for that. 

138 poll

Is it normal for married men to flirt?  I'm just sayin.  Makes me scared to take the plunge. 

137

so easy to get overwhelmed.  I am loving it tho but I need a bit of me time. 

136

I love my hair stylist.  My hair is back to normal.  Sorry no pictures.  I am wondering why I have over 1000 friends on facebook and under 100 likes on my fanpage.  Something wrong with that number.  http://www.facebook.com/MissMattilynRochester   Click the dagon link and click like on the page dagnabbit! 

135

This weave feels like a helmet.  I am taking a big chance and going in a different direction.  It feels good.  I went salsa dancing.  And Charlie Sheen Charlie Sheen.  Some people are really not ready for the limelight. I appreciate my lessons.  I am ready. 

134

ok so listen to the Bear Whisperer on the Animal Planet.  I say listen but I mean watch and listen.  I have been cast as not the bear, not the bear whisperer but the narrator on the show!!!  Yippieeee!!!  So exciting.  I am off and still dreaming taking names and taking the good with the bad, the challenges and the ups and downs of life and I am still moving, still doing, still loving and still learning.  Today was a good day!!

133

Okay went to mobile, then NY, then Philly, then back to NY then back to Philly all within 5 days.  I am tired.  Reason for my blogging absence.  I am very tired.  I have eaten too much and have back slid into some bad eating habits.  Tomorrow is a new day and I will get a good nights rest.  Amen