YESTERDAY

Betrayal of an intimate hopeful is heartbreaking but not nearly as wrenching as the betrayal of a friend a bossom buddie, a golden girl.  The loss is profound and felt deeply.  I have experienced all sorts of betrayal in the past 365 days since my last birthday and I have learned from each of them.  I thank the lessons and the lesson giver and make a clear and concise decision to leave these sorts of lessons as lessons of a younger more tragic me.  As I shed the skin of yesterday and welcome a tender yet older and wiser me I invite the blessings of the lessons into the next phase of my life.  They are so close I can almost taste the nectar so light and fragrant like a warm tropical breeze that tickles the peach fuzz on the back of my neck like a kiss.  I am eager, I am excited I am ready.  For love, for success, for opportunity, for laughter, for joy, for good health, for honest communication with EVERYONE I come in contact with, for heart-centered listening, receiving and loving, for holy unions, for sacred practices and magical outcomes, for miracles and good luck, for good fortune, for synchrodestiny and synchronicity, for love, for friendship, for peace, for acceptance, for success, for my true life and the bounty that the Creator has intended for me.  I gratefully and graciously accept and fervently wait to share all that this year has to share.  I seal this intention in the purest of light and love.  This or something better for the highest good of ALL concerned.  AMEN.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.

The Artist's Way

I am taking a class with the prolific Julia Cameron.  I feel so lucky and I feel that finally I will actually finish several books in my lifetime.  I have, in the past felt so freakin overwhelmed, actually I wanted to say another word but I am afraid of judgment so I said freakin instead of fuckin, but I was so freakin overwhelmed by structure, and how to tell the story, and I think I wrote this before, and what if I just find it I wont keep starting from the beginning and just write the same damn story over and over never moving forward!  But alas, I will take my messiness, my millions of journal entries and all my writings, from blogs, books, computers and longhand and I will complete a manuscript by Jan1, 2011.  Omg.  I can not believe I just said that.  Well folks I said it....I will complete at least one manuscript by the first of the year.  This is really freeing to me because I actually have a hell of a lot to say.