Happy Birthdays 170 of 365

I did a lot of driving today.  I am tired and I am happy to be cold and in my bed.  For some reason the heat wont work and its cold.  But I am still happy to be home.

My Aunt Shirley turned 70 today and I was so happy for her.  So many people love her, over 200 people showed up to celebrate.  I just love gatherings.  They are life!  I wish I would have taken some pictures to post, it was a good time.  I can recall all of the times over the years I have been with my cousins, weddings, funerals, parties, illnesses and holidays.  The little cousins are replacing me and my cousins.  We are the grownups now.  The grownups are getting old.  The passing of time, laughter, happy birthdays. 

Fannie Lou Hamer Performance 27 of 365

I am tired of writing...."of 365"

I am soooooooooo tired but wanted to say a short bitty about my performance at Stockton State College today.  Well I was great of course but really I learned a lot about myself. Something that I intend to release and move past.  I am always surprised at people's response to my presence on stage.  I am sure there are those that aren't in love with me but the sad thing is I expect that  the other sad thing is that when people are moved to tears or when they go on the journey I take them; I am genuinely surprised; EVERYTIME.  Someone said, that is good, keeps me grounded and in the realm of greatness but I really intend to stay great and just appreciate myself and the journey along the way.  To expect love over disappointment.  I acknowledge myself for noticing......but that needs to change.  Then what needs to change after that is my interest in good or bad, just honoring me and my gifts and appreciating whatever it is that people have to share with no attachment to outside opinions or comments.  But first things first.  I intend to expect miracles, expect joy, expect admiration and appreciation, to trust and respect my creative process....yeah that is my thought for the day.